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Wed Dec 20, 2006, 4:35 AM

Well then, this is a work in progress. There are some I will forever be adding to just to get it away from my mind, and some I will be done with now.
I got the idea from ~oddballoffun's journal, and decided that this could be a gradual catharsis. So, here we go:

1. What you did was wrong, and in your position, you should have known better. I did not deserve any of what you said to me yesterday. I hate that you could send my brother to 'apologise' to me, tell my boyfriend you were sorry, but you couldn't even approach me yourself. (Why am I so unapproachable?)
I love you, but you make it fucking hard to like you.

2. Thank you for believing me, in me, and backing me up on these endeavors. Thank you for showing me reason to trust you and loving me and letting me enjoy loving you. Thanks for being alive.

3. I hope you enjoy the effort I went to. It took thought, money, time and deliberation to come to this conclusion. I miss you.

4. You're annoying, but if you could tone it down you'd be totally cool.

5. Go back to your cheap wine and stop talking to me; all you say is mean and empty anyway. And if you wanted me gone you'd have made it happen by now, so fuck off.

6. You're immature and stuck inside of your fantasies and your ideals of how your life shouldacouldawoulda turned out to be. You say I'm too extroverted and I 'scare' you.. If you gave theREAL world a chance to show you what is really out there, maybe you'd be able to grow past highschool and be able to enjoy people and experiences.
Oh and alcohol isn't evil unless you develop a dependance, and no one you live with has one, so don't preach to me, when I live with an alcoholic. The difference is that I have self control and he doesn't. You'll probably never have the chance to see if you do.

7. I know you're probably in Scandinavia somewhere, but could you just post something so I know you're alive?

8. Get out of my head NOW! I don't want to remember you, even if there were good times. I want to be able to erase you now. Please, just leave me alone.

9. Thanks for the opportunity. I appreciate that I was one of many; I'll try my best not to screw it up.

10. I hope your entire business goes south for how you treated us.

11. Help me??

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Mood: Lazy
Listening to: Wonderful, Everclear
Eating: Noooothiiiing!!
Drinking: Juuuuices!! & Waaaaateeeeers!!

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=homicidal-mistress Dec 20, 2006, 4:45:01 AM

4. You're annoying, but if you could tone it down you'd be totally cool.

that ones about me.

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~elusiveastruth Dec 20, 2006, 5:06:20 AM

nope, but close.

=homicidal-mistress Dec 20, 2006, 6:45:52 AM

lol .. well im immature too. but only some of those things apply.

well.
night?
love ya. xx

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~bingodingo Dec 20, 2006, 12:50:00 PM

And absolutely none of them have anything to do with me!

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~MysteryRealm Dec 20, 2006, 4:20:34 PM

Somebodies been watchings Weebles and Bobs!!

I know who most of those are about, it was like a little guessing game

I am TRULY sorry about what's going on with number 1 & 5.

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~elusiveastruth Dec 20, 2006, 6:50:50 PM

Hey Em. Thanks.
I really need to watch them again, but John isn't even telling Mum the password to the parental controls anymore...
I'm at the library..

Take care, sweet.